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Welcome to the world of
"I need help but I'm too scared to ask for it."

Welcome to the palace of depression:
The place where those who have the key can't ever truly leave,
and those who know of it understand their inability to understand,
and the people who don't have it, call it 'nothing'

They don't see past the smile; the broken look just past the mask.
They dont hear the screams and pleas for help.
They don't understand the utter deafening thunderclap of silence
They dont understand how silence can drown a person.
They dont understand the voices that are loud enough to be heard, but quiet enough to seem unobtrusive.
They dont undertand how suddenly the utter pain of depression can grab a person;
everything could be perfect when suddenly it's like a switch is flipped and you just want to yell or cry or both
and most especially
these people dont understand the struggle it is to keep going,
to smile at everyone and say we're okay in a way that fools even our closest friends because we say it in the same way we tell ourselves every second of every day,

Depression isn't just a path to self harm and suicide and yada yada, anything can lead to that,
a man jumped off a building, his note? His reason?; he had a tooth ache.

No, 
depression is a nonstop battle, it strikes in the middle of a conversation and we have to keep the words flowing without anyone realising the complete pain that just gripped our hearts and removed the bottom of our stomaches.

Depression hits in the middle of a rare heart felt laugh, and we have to cover up the earth shattering sound of desperation that escapes with a "laugh induced cough "

Depression is in our heads
And our hearts
And our entire beings
Depression is

Don't ever
tell someone or let someone tell you
Otherwise 
Please dont kiss my scars
Dont treat them like  bumps or bruises or things that heal and go away
Don't draw versions or symbols of them on you
I dont want to you to even pretend you have them

Dont look at me with pity
Or sadness

If you dont understand than

Look at them with curiosity
Look at my scars and pretend their the cover of a worn book
Something to look at before you delve into the story
Cause thats what they are
Pictures without context
I see you.
I see your smile and how it doesn't come from happiness
I see your eyes and the pain everyone ignores
I see your weight and how much you hate it
I see your skin and all the flaws you despise
I see your scars and all you do not to look at them
I see your pain and all you do to conceal it

I see you 
And
I hope you know

I hope you know your smile gives me a fleeting moment of happiness
I hope you know your eyes always see me when I need you
I hope you know your weight makes it easier to hold you
I hope you know skin is how I know you
I hope you know your scars are simply milestones
I hope you know that while your drowning in pain you are the only thing keeping me afloat

So here, take my hand and we'll stay afloat together even as we drown
Because 

I see you and I hope 

That that never changes
Let me be your darkness
Confide in me and tell me your darkest thoughts and fears
Scream at me
Cry before me
Fall apart infront of me
Darkness does not tell your secrets
Darkness absorbs them and holds them
Let me be your darkness so you can shine
For even stars cannot shine without darkness
But you don't have to be your own darkness
Not anymore
Let me be your darkness
Welcome to the world of
"I need help but I'm too scared to ask for it."

Welcome to the palace of depression:
The place where those who have the key can't ever truly leave,
and those who know of it understand their inability to understand,
and the people who don't have it, call it 'nothing'

They don't see past the smile; the broken look just past the mask.
They dont hear the screams and pleas for help.
They don't understand the utter deafening thunderclap of silence
They dont understand how silence can drown a person.
They dont understand the voices that are loud enough to be heard, but quiet enough to seem unobtrusive.
They dont undertand how suddenly the utter pain of depression can grab a person;
everything could be perfect when suddenly it's like a switch is flipped and you just want to yell or cry or both
and most especially
these people dont understand the struggle it is to keep going,
to smile at everyone and say we're okay in a way that fools even our closest friends because we say it in the same way we tell ourselves every second of every day,

Depression isn't just a path to self harm and suicide and yada yada, anything can lead to that,
a man jumped off a building, his note? His reason?; he had a tooth ache.

No, 
depression is a nonstop battle, it strikes in the middle of a conversation and we have to keep the words flowing without anyone realising the complete pain that just gripped our hearts and removed the bottom of our stomaches.

Depression hits in the middle of a rare heart felt laugh, and we have to cover up the earth shattering sound of desperation that escapes with a "laugh induced cough "

Depression is in our heads
And our hearts
And our entire beings
Depression is

Don't ever
tell someone or let someone tell you
Otherwise 

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SilverWolf915 Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you for the watch :huggle:
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4vermine4 Featured By Owner May 14, 2013   General Artist
Your welcome!

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LadyOfManyArtForms Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thankyou For The Watch :heart: :llama: :fella:
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4vermine4 Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2013   General Artist
Your welcome!
Thank you for the llama
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x3misteryYuyux3 Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2012
olla x'3~ Thank you so much 4 the watch~
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4vermine4 Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2012   General Artist
:D your welcome
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Tetiel Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks a ton for the watch! Oh, and I know it's incredibly late, but since nobody's done it yet... welcome to DA :D
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4vermine4 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012   General Artist
No problem,

and thank you for the welcome
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Vignar Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch ♥
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4vermine4 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012   General Artist
Your welcome
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